After doctor siap2 jahit and bersihkan my body di OT,saya ditolak ke ward..masa tu badan mmg rasa kebas dr pinggang ke kaki..org buatlah papepon mmg tak rasa.before saya keluar from OT,i do asked dr ooi,bius ni thn smpai bila..dia ckp smpai esok pg..fuh~lega..bole tido sepuas2nya.
Bila smpai kat ward,my mum pon smpai..(my mum tak tahu yg saya dicser) and hubby told her,"along kene cser".
she cried..(i dunno y).tp of kos la i pon sedih tgk my mum sedih.saya ckp,"along ok,takde pape,dun worry" ( masa tu,saya tahu sgt perasaan mak saya sbb saya pon mak.mak mana yg bole tgk anaknya dlm kesakitan)
after selesai urusan di ward,husband pergi nursery,azankan baby and uruskan the uri.
around 11am,saya pon tersedar dr tido and called the nurse.i really want to see my baby..dpt kiss kejap je masa kat OT td and diaorg tros bawa baby ke nursery.nurse pon bw baby ke saya and i tried to breastfeed her..(dia dpt rasa sikit pon jadi lah kan...)
Masa saya BF dia,suddenly dia nangis..mcm nangis kesakitan...so i open her swaddle.OMG,ada mcm tiub kat tgn dia..then bawah tgn dia ada papan to support the thing..(sedey sgt tgk)..Masa tu,dlm hati..if i bersalin normal my baby tak perlu go tru all this thing!kesian sgt.maybe saya terlanggar bende tu and membuatkan dia sakit...
i cant stand the situation,so saya suruh hubby to calm her down..(kasi dodoi2 sikit)
Few mins later,nurse dtg to take her back..then i tanya,y takde org bgtahu i pon yg my baby nak dimasukkan ubat and ada bende tu kat tgn dia.masa tu rasa nak mrh sgt..tp memikirkan my baby akn dijaga oleh diaorg so saya kene bersikap rasional dan bersabar.
Lps baby dibawa keluar,saya nangis sepuas2nyaaaa..kesian sgt kat baby!my dad was there,dia ckp think positive..semua tu utk kebaikan baby...later,i tertido.
Ptg tu my officemate semua dtg melawat..rasa seronok kejap jumpa kawan2..hilang rasa sedih semua..
Dr dtg checked lg,everything is ok..saya tayah susah2 bgn kencing sbb ada tiub yg dimasukkan kat saluran kencing so kalo nak kencing tu,kencing je.(mmg tak rasa pon masa kencing tu sbb ubat bius still ada)
sbtu,28 march..ubat bius dh pon abes,tiub kencing dh pon dicabut..azab ok..dr force me to gerak2kan my kaki..kene jalan2 sikit takut nnti tak bole jalan tros..mmg sakittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt sgt masa mula2 jln tu.Allah je tahu.my hubby la yg dok ajar me bertatih mcm budak kecik :-P
Alhamdulillah,saya bole berjalan slow2..risau jugak tak bole jalan tros..naya je.
Ahad,29 march..baby's doc dtg jumpa kitorg and said,baby kene thn lg 2 hari.i was like...what???!!!.Dia bgtau yg baby memerlukan antibiotic so i cant bring her back..saya mmg kene keluar hosp hari tu.bole if nak stay lg but rasa rimas sgt duduk hosp lama2..rasa mcm..makin sakit..(sbb dok terbaring je).so i proceed to discharge tht day.
dlm pukul 11am,i asked the nurse to bring my baby kat my room.nak manja2 before dia kene tinggal..so i spend the quality time wif my baby.i BF her before balik..
Lps dh settle pasal billing semua,i req utk send sendiri my baby to nursery..sepjg perjalanan ke nursery,i crieddd...mcmana nak hadapi 2 hari without the baby????even hosp tu dkt je ngan my hse,tp saya bukan bole jln byk2 pon.can u imagine going back home without a baby??i duduk kat nursery tuh about 15 mins..tp baby baik sgt,dia tak nangis.i bet,kalo dia nangis..mmg i suruh my husband reg balik i kat ward..thk god nurse2 kat situ nmpak baik2..diaorg ckp dun worry..and i bole melawat baby anytime..
i decided to leave my baby before dia nangis..nnti lg psycho...so dr nursery smpaila ke kereta mmg tak renti2 menangis..masa tu dh tak peduli dh org tgk ke hape..diaorg bukan tahu susah senang kita.
isnin tuh,supposedly hubby sorg je pergi tgk baby tp saya nak jugak ikut.i really miss my baby.smpai kat nursery tgk dia tgh didodoi oleh one of the nurse..hari tu dh tak nangis lg.sbb dh janji ngan husband taknak nangis banyak2..i spend bout 1 hr wif baby..(i BF her and main2 kejap ngan dia..gomoi puas2).
masa tu jugak kitorg jumpa baby's doc,and she said baby bole balik hari esoknya,yeayyyy! tak sbr tunggu esok nak ambik baby!!
tup tap tup tap...
baby pon dh bole discharge and she's getting better now.Alhamdulillah~
Baby rayna sdg tido..mommy sdg tgk tv :-)
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After go tru all this,now i really knw apa itu pengorbanan seorg ibu.dulu,mak dok ckp mcm2 tp kita ni degil kan..skang,nah~rasa sendiri..
rasa seronok sgt bila ada anak.even now tido mmg jgn hrplah dpt lena mcm dulu tp puas sgtt..
I do received some feedback saying tht takut nak bersalin bila bc my previous entry..entry tuh bukan nak menakutkan org,cuma nak share exp bersalin.bukan semua org yg dpt rasa ape yg saya rasa.ada org senang je nak bersalin.even my cousin bole terberanak kat rumah je..the most important thing is,berdoa supaya semuanya dipermudahkan..selebihnya kita tawakal pd Allah.Setiap yg terjadi tu pasti ada hikmahnya.
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